You’ll regret it someday
the words in sure a lot of us hear growing up.
Like many girls I fought with my mother through my teenage years and every time we would argue those words would come from her mouth – you’ll regret this someday . That someday I’ve realized is now.
Was it such a big deal not to be “allowed” (more like it was frowned upon) to have a boyfriend at 14? Why I wanted to rush my youth is beyond me, so no i survived.
I realize that I took her love for granted as if every mother was obligated to show so much care for her children but that was and is completely false. My mother was there for me no matter when I needed her, heck she’s still here for me now even across the ocean and in different time zones. Even when she would be the only mother cheering in the crowds for me I would pick a fight, but why? I should have been appreciative she was there sitting in the crowd proud of her daughter on the field. Of course now when I can’t have those joyous memories, they are all I want. It seems we always want the things in life at the times when we cannot have them. As the french would say; C’est la vie.
I can come up with many irrelevant excuses but they can take back the time I’ve already lost. I love my mom more than anything in the world, and consider her to be my largest role model. I an only dream to be someday as successful in life and the proud and caring mother she is day in and day out. Being alone across the ocean without a physical mother is hard. There are days when I just want to run up to her like when I was a little girl and jump into her arms which is quite frankly impossible in the current situation. Thankfully I can pick up the phone and at least hear her voice. In the late hours when I’m walking home from the last metro in the pitch black, my mom will take the time to make sure I’m home safely. She’s still protecting me even when she’s not physically able to, and now finally I realize how lucky I am. I can’t change the past but I sure can start a great path for the future which is what I intend to do.